It was on January 31, 2010 at 6:15am that I just couldn’t wait any longer to test. I barely slept that night. I woke my hubby up early to test. Two lines, two lines, we were pregnant! We began screaming in excitement. I was crying and we immediately began calling our families. We had just gone off the birth control pill in December. After recently celebrating our second wedding anniversary, we decided it was time to add to our family. We had two puppies, but were missing something – a precious baby to complete our family. Rather than waiting for 2 or 3 more cycles after going off the pill as recommended, we immediately began using an ovulation kit for pregnancy. As early as I could test, I did. Now we were pregnant! When I was close to five weeks I called the doctor’s office to make my first appointment around 8 weeks. It was scheduled for February 18th. We were on ‘cloud 9’. I couldn’t wait to see our sweet baby and also hear that heartbeat. We began picking our names, shopping, and coming up with nursery ideas. On Saturday afternoon, February 13th our world came crashing to an end. It was a typical Saturday. When I was getting in the shower before going shopping for baby things with my husband, I noticed spotting. I immediately called my doctor on call. They said it was normal to spot some, but if it persisted, then call on Monday and they would check me then. I fretted all weekend long. Valentine's came and went and so did the bleeding. I called first thing Monday morning. They open at 7:30 a.m. and I was calling at 7:25am. They were able to schedule my for an 8:40am appointment. My husband and I got ready and loaded up the car. I prayed the whole way there that God’s will be done. At the office when I heard, “Jodi Crismond, you may come back,” my heart stopped. I went back for the ultra sound. While holding the hand of my husband, we discovered that my uterus was empty. There was no baby! I began crying and my husband just held me. They seemed to think that since I got pregnant so soon after going off the pill, that the medication was still in my system. This caused the miscarriage. I continued to go to the doctor for three days afterwards to make sure my HCG levels returned to normal. When they hit 0, I felt empty and heartbroken. We would never know that sweet baby that we created. I wondered what I did wrong. What could I have done differently? Was I going to be able to ever get pregnant again? The very next month (after not trying at all) I was two weeks late. I decided to test just to make sure. Sure enough, WE WERE PREGNANT AGAIN!! I was petrified and my nerves took over the excitement. I decided to stand on faith. I would not let the devil win this one. Nine months later on December 11, 2010 our precious baby girl was born. I know she was and will always be protected by her special guardian angel, her sibling. We take comfort in knowing that while we didn’t get to raise our sweet guardian angel, one day we will meet him or her again in Heaven. Until then, that sweet baby is in the BEST arms that it could be, our Savior’s.
May the Lord bless you! May you feel His arms around you at this time!
Jodi Jodi Crismond:
My story: “Finally Our Family of Three"